From the ancient times till today, the pain of parting either between parents and children, or lord and his subordinates remains the same. The most painful, however, is the parting of a married couple. I can only surmise your sadness being separated from your husband by death. You may have been reborn as a woman numerous times since time immemorial, but this last husband of yours was the last “good friend” of yours in this Sahā World.
The 31-syllable Japanese poems offer these sentiments: “In the natural world flowers scatter and fruits fall, but they never fail to come back in time. Why can’t a departed person ever return?” and “Thinking of the deceased day after day, my days are listless and painful year after year.” Please chant the daimoku of the Lotus Sūtra for your late husband.
Jimyō-ama Gozen Gohenji, A Response to My Lady, the Nun Jimyō, Writings of Nichiren Shōnin, Volume 7, Followers II, Page 94